Dear Universe

There are so many things I want to do, and it's frustrating.

Being unemployed, and my husband being unemployed is downright frustrating. Plus, my husband is starting to drive me nuts, with his being home all the time. I've been afraid to mention that he has a really good prospect and I'm not going to talk about it because I'm afraid I might jinx it, but please...any good thoughts/prayers/sacrifical items appreciated.

I was just reading June's blog where she was talking about some time she spent in Paris when she was but a youngin' of 25.

It got me to thinking about so many things I want to do and see, and the financial thing right now just sucks. I don't even have time to dream or plan, because I am so consumed with anxiety. And that's with medication. I'd hate to think of where I'd be without that right now. Probably in the fiery pit of my own demonic craziness. I want to travel. I want to go to London, Paris, Rome, Athens, Berlin, Dublin. Norway, Finland, Switzerland. Sweden and Holland. Spain. I want to go to Japan and Austrailia and New Zealand. I want to go everywhere. Ok, maybe not the Middle East right now.

So, I have a solution. I know it's not cool to ask for these types of things, but I really think this would be a good thing.

Dear Universe:
The Powerball jackpot right now is at $170 million. Do you know what I could do with that? Do you know how many friends and family members would benefit from my windfall? My parents could pay off their mortgage and ever have to pay another bill as long as they lived, and they could travel wherever they wanted to go. Same with my in-laws.

My brother could have his new house paid off, and never have to worry about paying for their daughter to go to college.

I have some friends that would also never have to worry about how they were going to pay for their kids to go to college, or how they were going to pay their bills.

I have a vision of taking everyone close to me on a fabulous vacation.

I would donate a huge sum of money to MS research. And the Susan G. Koman foundation, two issues that are very close to my heart.

I would never again have to worry about sending my kids to college, or what they were going to do with their lives. I could stop the worrying, my God, the endless, crippling worrying.

So here's what I'm saying: I know the odds are astronomical. But...someone is going to win that jackpot at some point. And whoever wins, had the exact same astronomical odds that I have. So really...why not me? You have no idea how many people you'd be helping. Lots and lots of people. I have big plans. I just need the money. What do you say, Universe?

P.S. - I am fully aware that I spend way too much time thinking about this.